I made it.
For two weeks my husband had been gone on active duty in the reserves.
I had a new home, a new way of living and I struggled with being by myself in a city 40 minutes away from family. I felt lonely and scared many times. I struggled with fear that gripped me because one night outside our home, I heard a women screaming and called the cops.
The two week journey challenged me because I had to rely on the Lord. It was a good thing, and God came through for me. I couldn’t call my husband when a pipe broke off under my car, and I couldn’t cling to any human being when I was afraid to go to sleep at night in my new house. The Lord took care of it all.
When my care broke down, the man that towed me happened to be the owner and Christian. He was a believer and he even said ” God must have brought me to you”. He was very kind and invited my husband and I to their church. ( I had been praying about churches in the area). He gave me a discount on the price and took me to a repair place that was family owned and they made sure I was the first one served. That showed me that the Lord was with me, despite my bad attitude. I was definitely feeling overwhelmed about the many things I faced when my husband was away. BUT. I was not alone.
Sometimes, in my emotions I face struggles of believing Gods word. It is so easy as a women to listen to my emotions rather than the word of God. What I am thankful for is that God has always listened to me. God is so compassionate and loving. He really does work on behalf of his sons and daughters.
I am so thankful for God’s love. I am so thankful that his love does not depend on me.
Maybe you need encouragement right now too. Maybe your facing something where you feel unprepared at what life is throwing at you.
I just want to encourage you to believe. Believe God when he says that he will never leave you or forsake you. ( I am preaching to myself too.) Believe that God loves you. He created you and fashioned you in your mom’s wound. You have purpose. You are special in God’s eyes.
Give him the chance to show himself to you. Work on your behalf with work, school, family, etc.
I pray for whomever reads this blog and I thank you for using my pain and struggles to speak in the lives of the reader. God, you know how much I struggle with believing that you love me, and that you will never leave me. Thank you for constantly showing me your love for me, and healing my broken heart. God I don’t know what life the reader has lived, but you do. Please walk with them and reveal yourself to them. Please give the reader a desire to know you by the Word, and to cry out to you. Please give us all the desire to know you and have a relationship with you. I pray for all believers that you would strengthen our trust and hope in you.
Thank you for who you are, and how much you love us.
In Jesus name,